I miss and love and need my children, so tremendously bad, I have a hard time coping. I buy a Christmas ornament for the kids each year & hang all the ornaments on the tree. See more ideas about grief, domestic violence, child loss. Hi. Life can suck but remembering that I'm not deserving of my pain as much as I am not deserving of my blessings keeps me a safe head space. I refuse to move forward. I continued to battle depression until one day I came to the realization that only I, with the help of God, could make my life worthwhile. Creative outlets can help you make sense of your feelings. I do believe in the power of prayer. Anita A. Nolan, Poem About Dad Coming Back Into Daughter's Life, Sympathy Poems When will I be able to hug my daughter and my son again. Two little girls in my class stole my heart! For some people, intense grief after the death of a loved one can lead to depression or make underlying depression worse. It's been five long years and no word from him. My Angel, My Gram By I feel that I gave up; but every part of my being was exhausted and I did not have the strength or resources, to overcome her relentless falsehoods, that the legal system eagerly "bought into." The pain and emptiness fills me up day and night. This story really hit home. I grew up feeling unloved and suffered from depression. My heart goes out to all those men who suffer this same despair and longing as I do. It may not produce what I wish was at this very moment, however, I just have to believe that if I pray fervently for the children's hearts, minds, abilities, talents, and spirits that they will be covered and protected. Your daughter was a true ray of sunshine, and we lost her too soon. My ex and I got separated and divorced a year ago due to serious issues, and it affected my daughter. Here’s some of the typical advice for parenting after divorce and missing your kids: Make plans to keep yourself busy while your child is away. I lost both of my daughters about a year and a half ago. The Bottom Line of Winning a Custody Battle with a Narcissist. We're in ICU for more than a month and almost lost her a couple of times cause she just stopped breathing. This poem explains exactly how I feel. Karista and Kylee mommy and daddy love and miss ya'll so much. I thank God that I found and married my husband. However, unlike the grief associated with death, the grief you are feeling may not have a resolution or sense of closure. I should have called the cops, but I was scared of my ex-sister-in-law’s husband. Losing custody of your kid is an emotional bomb. Each birthday, Christmas, Easter, Valentines, or just because, I buy a little something that reminds me of the kids & I put it in their trunk. My husband & I did everything the court asked of me & still they took my kids. Coping with the grief and loss of a child. Earlier in the case, Mindi had regained custody of Q.A.H. We try to focus on our kids, each other, and ourselves, and not on what could have been or might be coming. Again thank you, I loved this poem I lost my deaf daughter and her son in a fire. I've had a few visitations since December last year but they moved a couple of months ago and I miss them so much. I went through the same thing with my son. All I can do is cry day and night. Through The Eyes Of A Child By Are they wondering where’s mummy and daddy? Jan 9, 2017 - Loss or separation from children due unjust court orders, abuse, alienation or Domestic Violence by Proxy. Believe me I'm a great Father! I don't know if I did the right thing by separating, and I wish I could be with him. I thought about leaving this life. Thank you for sharing this. 17. I am currently in contact with two of my three children only through text. I don't know what to do anymore. I think of my kids everyday. I search the internet for new ideas of things to add to their trunks. I still cry for them, especially around birthdays and holidays. Despite spending thousands on legal defense and hours with lawyers and in court appearances it seems like she will get away with separating me from my daughter. She was born with spina bifida and fetal alcohol syndrome. I have 6 grand kids I haven't seen. Don't ever give up, and don't be discouraged. I have no words of comfort to parents who are going through this tormenting hell. I know your pain all too well. It's been 4 years since I've seen my son. Now my children want no part of me. I lost all 5 of my children in 2007, my mother has custody of them and I haven't been able to see them or talk to them since she got them. Just know you're always in my heart This is the most touching of all poems I have been reading. I feared she would continue to blackmail me, especially with my son's life. I've read all the books and studied the articles. If you need to flag this entry as abusive, A weekly guide to improving all of the relationships in your life, Subscribe to HuffPost’s relationships email. They often have more anger, guilt, physical symptoms, greater depression, and a loss of meaning and purpose in life. Being a father to another human being, living a simple life of wiping and cleaning. She is two years old. I waited 18 years before I found them again. While the cops were there my fiance went to jail for domestic battery. 18. Months would go by I was only to blame. I wished there were more support groups for men like us. It's as if a part of my life has been taken from me and from them. Of course talking to the mother did not help at all. I have a now 15 month old daughter, they couldn't take from me after closing my case. His dad remarried, and he has a sister. Conversely, if the parents do not see the body of the deceased of if the child disappears, as in child abduction, they are likely to stay in a state of denial and disbelief for a longer period of time. Friends are going out to celebrate a birth. She is my daughter. I will lend you, for a little time, A child of mine, he said. I thank God that I found and married my husband. We had 50-50..It's been 8 months since that and I'm still fighting! Recently, you may have read news stories about more and more spouses citing an ex’s depression in child custody cases. While a loss of a parent or caregiver is traumatic for any child, the likelihood of this turning into depression depends on four factors, according to a report in the Journal of American Psychiatry. How is that fair? I'm still a kid myself! There's plenty of deadbeat dads out there I've spent all my extra cash to get her to at the bare minimum follow visitations. 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